Wednesday, March 4, 2009

It's Only Been a Week

...and yet it feels like Miss Bonnie has been part of our family forever.  How can the heart adapt so quickly?  It's like mine was tailor-made to have 3 equal compartments of love for my 3 wonderful children.  Seems like I shouldn't love her as much as the others already but I do.  I love her so much it makes my eyes sting, just like with the biggies.

...since I had major abdominal surgery so I shouldn't be annoyed that I can't run, drive, stretch, vacuum or roll over in bed with carefree abandon.  Yet I am.  This sucks!

...but it feels like months since I slept through the night.  (Oh right, it actually has.  At least my pelvic bones no longer ache now that Giant Baby is no longer crushing them into powder.) 

...and I already feel really sad about having my tubes tied.  It was absolutely the right thing to do no matter how you look at it -- during the section, my OB said that the state of my uterus made this a risky pregnancy and she strongly advised against doing it again -- but when I look at Bonnie and know with certainty that she is my last baby, it hurts my heart.  I am determined to enjoy every moment of her babyhood.  I just wish I could slow time down a bit so she doesn't grow up as quickly as her brother and sister have.

3 comments:

Jamie said...

It's amazing how they just seem to fit into the family as if they've been there forever, isn't it?

I just posted a similar thing about slowing down time yesteday because my baby boy is 3 months old today and it's gone in the blink of an eye. I swear Sam's first 2 weeks lasted longer than this!

I honestly thought after having Jack I would have that "done" feeling, but it has yet to hit me. Would we be crazy to do this one more time (in a year or so!)?

Bethann said...

So happy to hear that you and Bonnie are all settled in like it has been that way forever. :)

I know how you feel about the tube tying.. Jim goes Friday for the big V and I'm sweating it.

Common sense and your (and mine) Dr. say no more but your heart needs some time to catch up :)

and if I haven't said it enough.. Bonnie is absolutely gorgeous!

Sharon said...

A mommy's heart is a miraculous thing, isn't it? ;)

Enjoy sweet baby Bonnie!