Wednesday, June 25, 2008

Blood Test #2 today

The kids and I went to the lab on Monday so I could get the first of three blood draws to measure my hcg production.  High point:  she got the blood on the first try, a rarity with my rolly veins.  Low point:  she showed the vial of my blood to the kids.  WTF?  

While there, I asked about when I should come back on Wednesday.  The faxed lab request didn't mention follow-up so I called my nurse this morning to find out whether I need to go back.  She said absolutely since my hcg level is "194 which is low so we need it to double but it's still early."  No, no, no.  Why did she tell me this???  I was feeling hopeful.  I was taking baby steps towards optimism.  Now, it's all wiped away and I feel cold and numb.  How am I supposed to get up and get the kids breakfast, let alone host a playdate in a few hours and wait for two days to find out if the number doubled?  I guess we shouldn't have tried again.  I'm not strong enough to handle it.

2 comments:

Stacey Cannon said...

Christy, hang in there. I am praying so hard that this works out and you get some good news very soon. (((HUGS)))

Jenny B said...

It's very early. VERY early. Keep your spirits up.